August 20, 2007 at 6:13 am (Uncategorized)

I’m still trying to get used to coming here. I hate it that y’all aren’t on reezle anymore. It’s not as happy there without you.  

Let’s condense things….

Plans to meet Pleiades in October got nixed. Maybe later….he’s one of my best friends but I’m just not sure if there’s anything romantic there or not. Then again, if we never meet how will I know? He was still trying to figure things out with this girl in Ohio…yes, no, maybe…then no, then let’s see, then no, then “I should run the other way but I’m not so let’s see again.” AUGH!!! He finally told me that she was going to come for a visit again. Which just so happened to be next week and going through Oct. Fuck it! If it happens it happens…if not, I’ll be okay this time. I promise. Funny thing is…the day after he told me this, all of it fell through with her coming. Karma….Fate? Dunno….but it’s up to him now. It would be wonderful to finally meet my friend after three years but it’s not as important in a romantic sense to me as it once was.

I’m really enjoying single life. My roommate has gone out of town for a job and although it wasn’t a romantic relationship…it was still another person, a male person around the house. Okay…we did have a brief “fling” about 7 mos. ago…but it was just that and we’re much better as friends. It was never meant to be serious. I’m too indpendent for him and he’s young…needs to get out there and experience life a bit more. 🙂

 I’ve always enjoyed my time alone…and I’m just relishing it now. Going to the pub now and again with friends is all the social life I need and somedays more than I want. I really do enjoy the company of me….and of course my son. 🙂

My hearing about the complaint that ass of an attorney filed is sept. 7th. I’m not worrying about it anymore. I’ve done all I can to prove his secretary is a lying bitch trying to save her own ass and job. I’ll just have to wait and see…no sense in worrying about it, it won’t help. I’ve already plotted my revenge…on Sept. 8th I will be replacing his welcome mat with bologne slices. That in addition to the sleazy porn magazines that should already have started arriving at his office. 🙂

Other than that…there may or may not be a hurricane coming my way. I’ll let ya know more about that when I copy and paste my reezle blog here tomorrow. 🙂

I hope things are going well with everybody. I’m going to bed now. G’night. 🙂

btw…Am I just stupid? Why can’t I figure out how to change the font or the size here?

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new mexico

August 8, 2007 at 3:41 am (Uncategorized)

I’m having trouble figuring out this site…I thought I had posted this already but it shows it as a draft.  I wrote it last week but I’ll try posting again. I’ll get the hang of this place after I’m here more. 🙂

Anyway…we had a great time in New Mexico.  There pics on reezle and myspace if ya wanna take a peek. 🙂

Well, here it is….my last night of vacation. 😦 It’s been so much fun road tripping with my dad again. I’m in the odd position of being mother and daughter on this trip. I’m glad my son is getting to experience road tripping with my parents too. Mom is happy that I’m along…cuz I’ll play with dad. She gets all “pretend” mad and scolds me for encouraging him as we pull over to watch hawks or explore that cave we saw from the side of the road or whatever else we feel like doing at the time. He indulges my whims as well…it’s just a great way to vacation and see things “off the beaten path”. We went down this one dirt road…he had to put it in 4 wheel drive to get through and we bounced along for a little while before dead ending into the most beautiful isolated lake.  

WOW!!!! We did so much…I don’t think I can write about all of it.  I’ll post some pictures later.  

We stayed two nights on top of a mountain in Cloudcroft New Mexico. I LOVED being in the middle of the forest. It was cold…okay, not cold cold but way better than Houston. We got into the hot tub every night and then dried off next to the fire pit. All while looking up at the most beautiful star filled clear sky. I didn’t have cell phone reception for two days and ya know what? It wasn’t all that bad. I wouldn’t like it like that forever but a couple of days…not bad. Work wasn’t calling me all of the time or at least they weren’t getting through. I am glad that my very very sweet friend let me borrow his laptop though. 😉

We spent a day in Roswell…checking out the aliens. 😉 

We went to White Sands and rolled down the large dunes. I was about the same age as my son is now when I first went sliding down the mountains of sand on a piece of cardboard. I’ll put up some pics of that too. It’s the middle of the desert but it looks like snow….the sand is that white. 

We went to Carlsbad Caverns…I don’t know if I’m going to put any pictures of that up or not. There is no possible way to show the magnitude and beauty of it in just a few small pictures. We watched the bats fly out at dusk. I’ve seen the bats come out from under bridges both in Houston and Austin but seeing them come out from the caverns was soooooo amazing. 

Ohhhhhh….I finally found real ghost towns. Two of them so far. One on purpose…I found it online and we just stumbled upon another one. My son is okay with real ghosts but he was so creeped out by the ghost towns that he stayed in the car with mom while dad and I explored. It was kinda creepy…but I like creepy. A storm rolled in so we had to cut it shorter than we wanted to but it was great. Those of you who know me well enough know that I’ve always wanted to find a real ghost town…and I did. YAY!

It’s been A LOT of driving. We just made it back into Texas tonight and so begins the loooonnnggg drive home tomorrow morning. yick…I don’t wanna. It takes FOREVER to get across this state. 
 
New Mexico is so beautiful. Coming back into Texas from there is depressing. I love the mountains…I could have stayed there forever. The climate was perfect and the view was spectacular. The desert is fun to explore but to hot and flat for me to want to live in or near it. We found lots of neat lil things…all kinds of lizards and centipedes *thhhiiissss* long. Not everything is bigger in Texas…the bugs are smaller. 🙂 

We watched two hawks just hanging out in a tree watching their buddy eat something…I don’t wanna know what it was.  

That’s all for now…time to get some sleep. I hope everyone is having a good weekend. 🙂 

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yesterday sucked…today just kinda sucks.

August 8, 2007 at 3:39 am (Uncategorized)

yesterday (yep…I’m copying and pasting)

I must have missed the announcement somewhere….apparently it’s 

“Be Mean To Denise Day”. 

I’m well aware that sounds whiny and pathetic but really…I am a nice person. I’ve been told that I’m too nice for my own good but I genuinely care about people. I always put myself in others shoes…I like to think that I’m very understanding. Not to say that I won’t stand up for myself or I’m a wimp but all in all, I’m very rarely ever mean to anyone. I’m usually pretty stong and self confident even, but wtf? I really just want to lay down and curl up in a ball. 

Today, it’s been the stupid ass attorney that’s been making my life a living hell and my ex husband. Those two aren’t even related issues. The stupid ass attorney had a chance to make things right and not pursue his case…but no, he wants to make a point and lucky me, I get to be the scapegoat in a case that I’m not even a party in. If he drops his case cuz he knows now that it wasn’t a personal thing with me, he also has to drop his case against the attorney he does have a very personal vendetta with. Again, lucky me…I’m in the middle and being “picked on”. Apparently “picked on” has now become an official legal term since that’s what the attorney my boss has hired for me keeps saying ~ “I’m sorry you’re being picked on”. Really….the stupid ass attorney can have my license taken away because he had his legal secretary lie in an affidavit….but it’s my word against hers. augh!!!!!!!!  We thought we had a way to get just me out of it on a technicality but that fell through earlier. 

I had just hung up with. (okay…on) my ex husband when I got that lovely phone call. Why did I hang up on my ex? Cuz he’s being an ass. He was yelling at me…we’re not married anymore, he doesn’t get to do that anymore or at least I don’t have to put up with it anymore. He’s yelling because there’s one last lil thing that we need to go to court about. It seems like things keep getting in the way of getting there. First, our attorney (we shared one since it was such an easy uncontested “I just want the fuck out” kinda thing) was in NY for a week and when she got back she had the flu, then I went to New Mexico and he went to Mexico…that was kinda funny. This week is a “dead week” in the courts. They are only hearing emergency cases because of a family law conference that happens once a year. So…he’s blaming me and won’t pay child support until it’s done. I did hold it up the week before our attorney went to NY but I had to work…I can’t NOT work, especially if he’s not gonna pay child support.  I could file contempt charges but he’s not refusing to pay at all, he’s just holding the money…still not legal but by the time I could file charges to get it…I would already have it. Really…I don’t want to press charges, it’s stupid and it’s mean. I’m not going to be mean just because he is. Now, if I could find a way to be mean to the stupid ass attorney, that’s another story. I would run over him if I could get away with it. 

My ex owes me some from last month too…because I was being nice. He would have only had about $50.00 to take with him for spending money on his trip to Mexico with his girlfriend if he would have paid me all of it…so I said just make it up next month when you have it. Not only that, I could have had him pay $400.00 more a month than he is…but that didn’t seem fair. I don’t want more than I really need, he needs to live too.  Maybe I am stupid…people keeping telling me that being nice is my downfall and ya know what? I think that’s sad but maybe they’re right. 

My roommate and one of my best friends is leaving tomorrow to begin his new career as a truck driver. I’m really, really happy for him. He had a horrible divorce….his ex wife is just not right… she stalked him, laid behind his car so he couldn’t leave without running over her, cheated on him, tried to take his kids away or at least not let him see them without supervision and so much more. He is an awesome dad…patient, kind, loving and playful with his two little girls. She is manipulative, self righteous…ya know the kind, the ones that act like the world owes them something. She took him for EVERYTHING he had and wanted more…then offered to sell him their bedroom furniture. lmao…that took balls. 

So anyway, he’s off to “get back on his feet” and recover from that hell. It will be a great adventure for him and greatly improve my rock collection…but I just wish he were going next month. He’s become my support system during all of this legal shit and he won’t even be around for my hearing. 😦  


I know that sounds selfish…but I need a hug dammit.

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